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Breaking My Silence

I know it’s been a little while… okay, it’s been a long while.  I let day to day life get the best of me and didn’t stay committed.  I’m sorry for that.  After the last couple weeks, I just can’t not say anything though.  My heart is sad and grieved and it’s taken me far too long to write this because not only am I struggling to find the words but words are simply not enough.  I’m going to try anyways so here it goes… Continue reading → Breaking My Silence

This is me checking in.

“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

 

Whoever knew that starting something new would be so difficult?  I know, I know… everyone.  Sometimes, I just like to live in denial about it and think that I will be good at something from the get go or at least it won’t take me long.  I think part of my issue is consistency.  I’m not very good at it.  I’m not consistent with my kids’ bedtime routine, with my bedtime routine, with my writing, with filing all my important documents, with work, with connecting with people.  I want consistency to be something I work on.  It WILL be something I work on.  I will also learn to give myself grace.  I’m not great at that either.  I know I need to be.  I know it’s necessary.  I know that if I don’t show myself grace more that I am going to crush myself under the weight of my own expectations (recovering perfectionist, guys).  So in this season of learning to love myself, I’m also learning self-discipline and grace for myself.  What season of life are you in?  What is your season teaching you? Continue reading → This is me checking in.

29.

In this season of questioning and rediscovering, there has been something (not completely related) that keeps coming to my mind.  I’m very quickly approaching 30.  It seems so funny to me.  It’s always sounded like such a grown up age and I don’t feel like I’m that much of a grown up.  Being married for over a decade, having two kids, and now living further than 10 minutes away from my mom hasn’t made me feel like a real grown up so I’m not really sure what will.  (I also feel like at some point I should stop saying “grown up” and say “adult” and maybe that will help but who knows ha!) Continue reading → 29.

Wind of Change

Two weekends ago, we moved out of the only place we have lived since we got married over ten years ago (minus the six days we lived with my mom after our honeymoon) and into, not just a whole new city, but a whole new county.  Out of those ten plus years, we were managers of that apartment complex for almost nine of them.  It was both a blessing and a curse to have been the managers.  By the end of it all, it mostly felt like a curse. Continue reading → Wind of Change