The last couple weeks, I’ve been fighting within myself. I have been having some anxiousness, feeling some insecurities rising up, feeling sad, feeling worthless and less than. There have been some lies swirling around in my head and I have been trying to ignore them and displace them. Continue reading → Confronting a Few Lies
I’ve been a whirlwind of feelings and emotions lately. (No, I’m not pregnant). As an ennegram 4, it’s something I’m used to. It’s something I usually embrace. It’s been a process but I have actually learned to love myself and all my emotions because that they are a part of me – a part of me that I’m grateful for.
I know it’s been a little while… okay, it’s been a long while. I let day to day life get the best of me and didn’t stay committed. I’m sorry for that. After the last couple weeks, I just can’t not say anything though. My heart is sad and grieved and it’s taken me far too long to write this because not only am I struggling to find the words but words are simply not enough. I’m going to try anyways so here it goes… Continue reading → Breaking My Silence
“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”
Whoever knew that starting something new would be so difficult? I know, I know… everyone. Sometimes, I just like to live in denial about it and think that I will be good at something from the get go or at least it won’t take me long. I think part of my issue is consistency. I’m not very good at it. I’m not consistent with my kids’ bedtime routine, with my bedtime routine, with my writing, with filing all my important documents, with work, with connecting with people. I want consistency to be something I work on. It WILL be something I work on. I will also learn to give myself grace. I’m not great at that either. I know I need to be. I know it’s necessary. I know that if I don’t show myself grace more that I am going to crush myself under the weight of my own expectations (recovering perfectionist, guys). So in this season of learning to love myself, I’m also learning self-discipline and grace for myself. What season of life are you in? What is your season teaching you? Continue reading → This is me checking in.
In this season of questioning and rediscovering, there has been something (not completely related) that keeps coming to my mind. I’m very quickly approaching 30. It seems so funny to me. It’s always sounded like such a grown up age and I don’t feel like I’m that much of a grown up. Being married for over a decade, having two kids, and now living further than 10 minutes away from my mom hasn’t made me feel like a real grown up so I’m not really sure what will. (I also feel like at some point I should stop saying “grown up” and say “adult” and maybe that will help but who knows ha!) Continue reading → 29.